Hello again little slaves,
I would like to thank all of you who support my work and make it possible for me to run this website. I like to believe that we share a special niche interest in the BDSM world, one that is not catered to as it should be. Since it is impossible for me to post my good work on sites that sell clips. As they do not allow blood and real damage (like castration), this is the only way I can keep making content like this.
At the moment, my loyal slaves help me by purchasing the full versions of my clips through payment links. However I am thinking of making a Patreon or Subscribestar account. This would eliminate the need for you to ask for a payment link and then wait for me to reply and customise your vid. I was thinking of making the first tier 15,- a month. This would allow you to choose one video per month as a download. You will still get them customised with your slavenumber like you do now.
Going this route will make the videos cheaper for my loyal slaves and will remove a lot of unnecessary work on my end. I would call that a win win situation, wouldn’t you slave? I will also add a few extra tiers that involve assignments like you see in the castration and penectomy club. you have requested this many times, so I hope more of you will participate. Said assignments will focus on CBT & Ballbusting.
I did a CBT needleplay livestream once, which I really enjoyed. The only problem I faced was the different time zones of my fans. I do not plan on streaming on a Wednesday night at 4 am. I would like to do another livestream with you in the near future, but I will limit the amount of people that can attend to a maximum of 5. Because this way I can interact better with you.
How it works
The way i’m going to set these up is as follow: I will announce the stream and a date when I am available you can then reserve your place in the stream by joining the crowdfund. When I reach 150,- worth of pledges I will send out the payment links and the stream can be set up. If you want to have a solo session this can be arranged too. In that case you basically take all seats in the stream. If you would like to do this, we can make it more interactive as I am only dealing with one person.
In my last live session I gave my slaves the opportunity to buy needles so that they could have me place them in my poor slave’s clitty and eggs. They could place them However they liked (provided it is physically possible ofc.). Let me know what your opinion on this is and if there are things you might want to add. Note that I will not do things that I consider cheap porn, like being naked in shoots or doing anything to sexually please those worthless man bits. Manclits are for CBT and nothing else, sorry but we leave that pleasure for real men with real dicks.
Online solo CBT session
If you want to have a solo session this can be arranged too, you basically take all seats in the stream then, if you would like to do this, we can make it more interactive as I am only dealing with one person. In my last live session I gave my slaves the opportunity to buy needles so that they could have me place them in my poor slave’s clitty and eggs however they liked (provided it is physically possible ofc.). Let me know what your opinion on this is and if there are things you might want to add. Note that I will not do things that I consider cheap porn, like being naked in shoots or doing anything to sexually please those worthless man bits. Manclits are for CBT and nothing else, sorry but we leave that pleasure for real men with real dicks.
BDSM background and future castration plans
And now for the part you have been waiting for, the answers to a lot of questions you keep asking me 😉
The thing that I get asked most of all is how I got into BDSM and if I always liked to torture dicklets. To be honest, I wasn’t always as active in the torture department as I am now. While I was always dominant it wasn’t until I fully trained my puppy that my most evil plans came to fruition.
My main thing was mentally adjusting macho men so they would do as I say and make them submit to me completely. When they were broken I would “torture” their balls by doing things like ballbusting “by accident” or just squeezing them till they begged me to release them.. I love control 🙂 I do not get sexually aroused by causing pain but it gives me a deep mental satisfaction that is not comparable to anything else, am I a psychopath or just a cute little pink haired innocent goddess? You can decide.
How I made my puppy
When I met my puppy he was a womanizing macho bastard, the typical gymrat/football player. This is exactly the challenge I love, I do not like sissies or overly submissive men as starting material. Within a few months I was already pushing his bounderies, babysteps at first, but it soon began to snowball and before long he was peeing sitting. This was a major turning point for him as he vowed he would never ever sit to pee as a Dutch man would never lower himself to such behaviour.
When the first cracks appeared in his macho self image, it was time to up the ante, it was chastity time! At first we had the same issue as the sitting to pee dilemma, he was reluctant to hand over the keys to his prized manhood but after some enticing, I managed to lure him into that too. At this point I knew I had him exactly where I wanted, totally under my control.
When you lock your slave up long enough, they will do or agree to anything as long as they can get release. I ordered a huge strapon and when it arrived, I gave him the choice to stay locked or to get raped like a little slut. He was not happy with this and said he would never do such a gay thing etc. etc. After another month in chastity he stood bent over the couch, moaning like a little whore while I rammed my giant dildo in him 🙂
Needleplay, the beginning
The needles started when I was was whipping his little dicklet and a sewing kit caught my eye, at this point I had broken him so far that he wouldn’t resist anything anymore, so I picked up the kit and sewed his foreskin shut. I really enjoyed the sensation of feeling the needle glide and tear through the skin, but I didn’t like how much effort it took and the fact that the needle was not comfortable to hold. The next day I searched online for a place that sold medical supplies, bought a bunch of needles and well the rest as they say is history.
Did I castrate my slave?
Castration is a topic I also receive a lot of questions about, I will try to answer some here. Yes I did castrate my puppy, those balls are dead as a doornail. Since he doesn’t serve any sexual role I thought it was only fitting to modify him. The lack of testosterone makes him a better puppy and more docile in his behaviour. The only downside to this is what you might call eunuch fat, when you castrate your slave, they tend to gain weight but i am working on it and forcing my puppy to work out now.
Castration and extreme CBT as a “service”
There seems to be a much bigger demand for people that are willing to do real damage than there are dominant women willing to do so. As a result of that I get asked A LOT to do castration on people. In the beginning I liked the idea of cutting open a sack and taking the balls home for my castration jar but I soon found out that 99,9% of these people just waste my time.
Castration fakers and stalkers
They cancel a day in advance or just ghost me when they realise it is real. The other 0,1% contains the second reason why I am less enthusiastic about taking home slave balls and that reason is stalking freaks. To me it would have just been a simple transaction, I meet you ,make the cut and leave with my balls in a jar. To them this is some lifelong commitment and the start of me “owning” them.
One even went so far as to say that nobody (not even my puppy) understood “what we had”… Mind you, I haven’t even met this person at that point. You will understand I broke off communication with that man after that and gave up on offering this “service”. Besides, there is also the legal issue, people can’t give consent in such a way that it would render me impervious to persecution. Combine this with the stalker/weirdo mentality I mentioned before and I can just imagine the blackmail that would follow when said person realises that he will not get what he wants out of this.
The castration jar
At this moment there are only two slaves that I would like to add to my castration jar. One is my puppy, the only reason they are still attached is that I like torturing them but both the balls and the dicklet will be removed eventually, since I really love the smooth reroute look. Maybe we can crowdfund it 🙂 The other is one of my most loyal fans, who has been following my work from day one and supporting me ever since. He has an open invitation to become my jar trophy… sadly he doesn’t want to give them up (yet).
I started my castration club to avoid these problems, I can’t be legally held responsible for what you do to yourself. This enables me to help my slaves by giving them an extra push so they can become perfect slaves. My perfect slave either has a penectomy or is castrated and modified in such a way that he can’t use that little worm for nasty things. The combination of my two programs (castration & penect-o-me) will result in the loss of function in both the balls and the dicklet and when done by a truly dedicated, it slave might “accidentally” remove the dicklet altogether.
Want more like this?
I hope this clarified a lot of the things that were on your mind, my little slaves. If you like these kind of posts I might do another one since there is a lot more you are curious about. For now, I would like to end this post by saying thank you again to all the slaves that make it possible to run this site by contributing to the costs.
Want to see more of my work? You can find the full length video here